Miscarriage #2

TMI?.. Don't worry, I won't give the gory details, but this is a web log of our life, so this counts.

After last months 'chemical pregnancy', the DR told us to keep trying and not worry about it. Now we have the second 'chemical pregnancy' (meaning the pregnancy ended before the 5-6 mark).

Yes, I can be practical about it. Monday's hcg was 16ml, today's was 4ml. My body knew the eggs weren't viable or that my uterus couldn't hold them and did what it was supposed to do. The good news is we didn't go 8-9 weeks and see a heart beat only to lose that baby. I'm not asking the, "can we" question right now.

The more haunting thought to me is if life begins at conception (which I do believe), do we have two babies in heaven? Are they with my dad? My mom had a miscarriage before she had my sister. I have often wondered if we would meet a sibling when we came to end of this life and entered the next. Dad might have a house full of kids in heaven. It's an interesting prospect to me.

Anyways, my body needs a break. Forget the emotional aspect..try hormone fluctuation and cramping for two weeks!

What's next? I don't know. We leave for New York/Canada on Friday to visit Grandma and Grandpa Johnson for a week. I'll set up a consult when we get back. It's in God's hands. I know that.